Monday, November 10, 2014

The Ups and Downs



This past weekend I traveled up to Seoul for the very first STINT meeting. Around 90 young people that are preparing to go to all over the world to fulfil the Great Commission gathered in the CCC headquarters. 

We weren't told much about what we would be doing there, we were only told to bring some required paper work and to prepare our hearts. So basically we were going in blind. 

I took a bus from Busan at 1AM and arrived in Seoul at about 5AM in the morning. It was a comfortable bus ride, but with all the excitement and anxiety I couldn't get much sleep. I had high expectations that the staff at the KCCC headquarters would be answering a lot of the confusion I had about the logistics of this whole missions. Little did I know that as those questions were answered I would only be left with a lot more confusion. 

It was about 8.30AM when I arrived at HQ and we were served a simple breakfast of onigiri, I ate and hurried to the conference hall. I registered quickly and found a seat with another girl from our school that is planning to got Singapore. 

I was thankful that the first thing that we did as the day started was have a worship session, followed by a preaching on what it meant to have a heart of service and a passion for mission, and then had a short prayer session. At that moment I couldn't have been more thankful that I was a part of KCCC.

Then it was time to get down to the nitty gritty. Staff members and speakers came to take the podium one at a time to talk about everything from visa preparation, scheduling, insurance, and even how to talk to potential sponsors. All of this was done to prepare us for the next few months of getting ourselves together for the mission.

With every new speaker that came on to the stage, I grew a little more encouraged and a little more worried at the same time. Encouraged because each speaker gave us a little more clarity on what we needed to prepare, thus I didn't feel like I was so in the dark on how to move forward. At the same time every speaker (yes, EVERY speaker) revealed to us a different fee that we had to pay for all the different processes that we have to go through, and none of them were very small.

I found myself worrying more and more about money - one of the worst things in the world to be worried about. But as the staff members were telling us about all of this, they never forgot to remind us how God will be the one to provide for us, and that it wasn't in our hands it was in His. 

I believe the staff members were also aware of how worried we all got as we drew up plans in our heads about how to get all the funding together, because at the end one of the staff members reminded us of 2 crucial things:

He will finish what He started. If God has truly brought me down this road, He will be the one to provide for it all. I can only do what I can do, and trust that He is the one who will push it all along. 

Not mine, but Your will be done. But, I must also hold near that it isn't what I want that will pan out, it is what He has already planned. He is going to do something with my life, and I am only coming along with Him. 

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